Big Big Daddy

What's your picture of God? When you hear that word what does it mean? Do you see a judge and jury telling you your punishment? Do you see the beauty of this world? Do you see the first time you experienced him? Do you see that "religious" person who was terrible to you 'cuz you are different? Many people have many pictures of God.

My picture of God is a Big Big Daddy. I have been blessed on this Earth to have an amazing father. My dad has always been there for me. He has provided the way a father should. He never missed a single event I had in school. He has done so much for me, that I can't even begin to tell it all. Now, to think that God the creator of the Universe and this world, loves me not only like, but more than my earthly father. This paints a pretty amazing picture to me.

Now God wants us to love him as our Father as well, He wants us to voluntarily come to him, and give our best for him. He wants that same relationship as a Father and child. This is why I picture God as my Big Big Daddy, and I thank Him for loving me this way, the way my daddy does.

Worst Run of The Year

So today, well yesterday the 28th, I had the worst run of my year. Here is why!

I took off, and barely moved as the wind was crazy today. I thought I was going backwards at first, but after the first little bit the wind wasn't too bad.

Next crappy thing to happen was, well you remember that snake I posted about in the falling apart post, well I saw his tale sticking out of his hole today on my way out. This means I thought about how I was going to cross that sidewalk from the point of passing it all the way until I got back to it, but luckily he was gone by the time I got back!

Right after I crossed the bridge on my way out, which is about the 4 minute mark on my 20 minute run the worst part hit me, and it hit hard! Well there is a problem with running too soon after you eat something, and this causes you to have to welll... poop. This was scary for me. I had to run the remainder of my jog worried that I was going to go in my pants. There are many random thoughts that came into my head such as, "if this happens, do I keep running and act like it didn't happen or stop hold the shorts so nothing falls out and walk?" or the "do I run to make ground faster and also speed things on the inside, or slow down to help the fight, which then takes more time until I get to the toilet", also the "I wish Aron was here, so I could sit and have him come pick me up", also the "How long 'till I have to lose all pride and knock on a door?" Lots of prayer also went into this jog, which normally does happen, but more than usual!

In the end, I thank the Lord for getting me through that struggle!

AWAKEN!

Tonight at Awaken Youth we had an amazing time! I was set to "preach" for the first time, but really I didn't preach. We started slow with just a couple kids, then started talking about how God has a purpose for our lives, as we are talking about "The Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren. This was our third week of it, which is God's third purpose for our life, to be like Jesus (discipleship).

As we got going with things more kids kept coming in and out of the room. Many of the kids became very interested in the discussions we were having. The kids had so many questions tonight, and I loved it. My brother Aron and I kind of tag teamed the answers and the "sermon".

These questions weren't easy ones either, but we gave them all the Biblical truth we had. Some questions we had to say flat out we didn't know, and others we had to give them answers they didn't want to hear, but it was right out of God's word.

Also, normally we get done with the "church" part of Awaken about 8:15, and play games and stuff 'till 9, but tonight we had to cut the conversations short as we were being kicked out of the rec center as they close at 9!

One of the more encouraging parts at Awaken tonight, was when Aron and I were walking to the car we walked past all the kids and stopped for a minute. One kid said "so you guys do this every week?" I then replied "yes, every Thursday 7:00 except next week for the holiday", he says "right here?" I nodded and said yes, then he said, "cool, I wish I'd have known you guys were doing this, I'd have been coming for a while." This is encouraging for this kid to see God, through our love and truth.

It was an amazing night, I praise God for those kids and pray for them to have a wonderful week, and hope they seek after a real relationship with Christ!

Falling Apart

Falls Apart by Thousand Foot Krutch

These past few days I really feel like I'm falling a part! Kinda funny, but scary stuff all at once! It starts last week when my brother said to me "ready to sleep 'till noon on Saturday?" I responded "nah I don't think I'm going to this week, it really messes me up when I sleep that late." Well guess what! I finally got out of bed and around at about 1 in the afternoon, which means I slept straight through noon o'clock.

Then that night guess what happened! I couldn't fall asleep, but had to be up and leaving for church at 7:20 to help set up. I woke up at 7:17, and we were out the door at 7:24. I hate that feeling of being late, but it worked out.

Last night as Aron and I were crossing the I-380 bridge on our way back to the house from our nightly run, I yell and high step and get awfully close to Aron. At this point he is wondering what the heck is going on, I continue to pick up pace a little for the next 10 - 15 seconds as I distance myself from what I saw. A big freakin' snake! If I only have one fear it's a snake. They creep me out like nothing else, and I've dealt with some spooky stuff in my time.

The next piece of me falling apart happened tonight as Aron and I were lounging on the couches watching some TV. I dosed off in an awkward position with my legs up on the arm of the chair and the rest of my body below them. I suddenly woke up, it was about 7:25 pm and I saw the clock and threw myself upright thinking to myself "Oh Crap! I'm late for work!". I thought it was 7:25 am, and as I threw myself upright my legs happened to fall asleep and they hit the floor with a loud THUD. Aron couldn't stop laughing as he saw my face and thought as I threw my legs down, that my whole body would follow onto the floor, but luckily that part didn't happen.

I'm hoping that this is all of me that is falling apart for now, and the rest of the week goes a lot more smoothly!

A Runner?

This picture shows how I have felt a few times when I've been running this year! Many thoughts could fill a bubble above the head as I run. The most common ones are probably "I hope in you Lord, 'cuz there is no way I'm going to make it on my own," (praying with Isaiah 40:31) or sometimes the "am I going to make it to the toilet or be carrying a little extra at the end". Or the "15. . . 10. . . 5. . . minutes left".

On January 1st of this year my brother Aron, brother-in-law Roger, and I set off on a journey. The journey to run at least 20 minutes every single day in 2008. Winner gets. . . nothing, just satisfaction and the pursuit of becoming a more disciplined person. The origin of this challenge did not come from any of us. It came from our cousin Travis, as he is an ultra-marathon runner. He runs in a 50 mile race every year and the running everyday is part of his training. It was his idea to try to run 365 days for at least 20 minutes, but he has not successfully completed it yet. One cool thing about our challenge is that it is a leap-year, so we get to run 366 days this year, if successful.

The year is nearly half over, and one question I continue to ask myself is, am I a runner. It's hard for me to consider myself a runner, even though I have done it everyday so far this year. It's hard, because I used to hate running so much, but I've really learned to appreciate it much more over the past months.

Some of my most spiritual conversations with God have been while running these past few months. Running helps me get away a little and just hear His voice. Since I've been here in Iowa City, I've been able to run with Aron a lot. I like this, as we can really talk and dream, and tell each other things to pray about for each other.

If anyone knows me, they know I'm a dreamer. I've had so many ideas for dreams and hopes come through my head as I run. One stays constant. That is to bring Jesus to as many teenagers and youth as I can. I want them to see the love Christ has for them, and how great there life can be with Him!

The Great Flood!

I am going to bring floodwaters on the earth to destroy all life under the heavens, every creature that has the breath of life in it. Everything on earth will perish.
- Genesis 6:17

Dubuque St. and Mayflower Residence Hall in Iowa City

A few weeks ago while getting ready for bed with the news on the t.v. my little nephew Isaac (6 years old) said "I thought God said he would never flood the Earth again."


I know our flood here in Iowa isn't quite that bad, but it's hard not to think about it at times! As many know this day is a crazy one! So far in 2008 here in Iowa we have had massive floods, extreme tornadoes, and even an earthquake. It's hard not to think about the end times through all of this, but we should not lose faith or focus on that point so much as to cause a distraction in our lives. Although it is important to realize that it could very well be the end of days and we still have many people in our lives that we need to share Christ's life and love with!

The Spillway at the Coralville Reservoir

Sad Day

This is a video my brother Sethie made while I was playing on the computer when I was 10.

June 9, 2000 was the worst day of my life. Every year around this time I am reminded of that day. That day I lost my best friend and brother Seth. He was a great one. Life was never dull with him around! He was in a car wreck with one of our good family friends and didn't make it out. I have grown and changed a lot since then, as I was only eleven at the time, but looking back in my memory I do not see an eleven year old. I feel I aged a lot in that little time. This event changed my life forever. I would not be the same person I am without that event. One thing I have thought a lot about over the years is the great question of would I trade my life for his. I would give my life in a second for my brother, but at the same time I think I would rather have him go on to the afterlife and have me suffer his loss, than to have me die and him have to suffer the pain of losing a brother like I have.

Iowa State Experience

So the following is a note I wrote on Facebook on Monday, September 10, 2007. I was sitting in Parks Library at Iowa State University while sipping coffee and reflecting on my college experience to that point:

My name is Adam Kolosik. I am from North English, Iowa. I am currently a freshman at Iowa State and am majoring in Engineering, but am currently Undeclared in that field. So far I love it here at Iowa State. I have partied many times and been drunk pretty much every time I go to a party. If you're still reading and think oh yes typical college student. Well sorry I try not to be. I have failed in my life so many times. Including every weekend I've been here in Ames. Don't get me wrong the party life is a fun one, but my life in high school without it was much better. In college I have way more opportunities to reach out, be part of something, and find some people that are more like me! In high school I had a lot of friends, but no one really like me. I go to parties, but I'm not a partier. I love Jesus Christ and he loves me. I have been disappointed many time in my life and I'm well prepared for that everywhere I go. No matter how many times I fail or fall Jesus still loves me, and no matter how many times I'm disappointed I've disappointed him more, but he forgives as I ask. He love unconditionally, yet as humans we only wish to love each other this way. I've drank, failed, cheated, stolen, lied, cursed, and treated girls terribly. I'm sorry for all of this. I wish to get back to the way I used to be and be on fire for Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior. He died on the cross for me, I hope I can live my life the best I possibly can for him. I will fail and I have many times before. He still loves. If you do not like me for who I've been I'm sorry, but the only thing I can do is try my best and change. My recent weeks couldn't be better described than the way Reliend K puts it in "Who I Am Hates Who I've been". If you understand any of this or have been through it, give me a message, maybe I can help or maybe you can help me. But as Christ says together with him we can do all things!


This post now is to say that I did not get right back on track after that post, but I eventually did, and have been on track for quite some time now. I still have struggles, but I have grown so much stronger through this with Christ's Love that carried me through. I started attending Heartland Assembly of God consistently and God just began to work over my heart and bring me back to him. I thank him so much for what he has done for me! Praise the Lord MY Father!